will you wait?

"To do anything great is a matter of waking each morning and learning to bless the timetable of God. Patience is that inner peace that comes from agreeing that God, who has all the time in the world, cannot be hurried. Working on God's good time and enjoying God while you labor are the keys to patience." Patience by, Calvin Miller.

Two things God has brought into my life to be consistent themes... #1. Patience. I am realizing that patience is not something that we just learn how to do, you cant just try really hard to be patient, because I honestly think that patience goes against our fleshy humanly nature, just like the other fruit of the spirit... I mean we can "try" to be patient... but its just not how it works. "Patience is a gift of the Holy Spirit... Patience is a direct result of God's Spirit in us." The closer I get to God, the more I let the Holy Spirit consume and have my life completely, patience will be a natural overflow of what is happening inside.
BUT it is hard.
(oh, by the way, I am reading this book for discipleship... so I will refer to in often)
At the end of every chapter there is a character story where someone from the Bible had to go through being patient. This week it was Noah. Oh, Noah...
God came to Noah and told him what he was going to do, (flooding the earth) then gave Noah his instructions to build this massive boat, gather all this food, animals in twos etc... So I'm reading this thinking, yeah OK, that's a pretty crazy plan, but you do it and regardless of what people say, or how people thought Noah was crazy you trust God and push through and build the boat and get it done... So, I'm thinking about my own life and how right now God is asking me to be patient, that his timing is not mine, that I need to press on with the things that I am doing, that I need to keep my hope and no matter what other people say to me, even though they may be people who care about me and love me, no matter what i need to keep going, trusting God until the end, until His will is revealed.

OK.

So, I'm like OK, sweet this is so encouraging, Noah totally went through this, he built the boat, he was obedient to God he disregarded the doubts and "chatter" of others... then I read this... "The boat would be done when God said so, and each day for 120 years, Noah focused on God's ultimate finished product." UM.... excuse me? it took 120 years for the boat to be finished. you mean to tell me, for 120 years, YEARS, Noah was faithful to do God's will and WAIT for God's timing... for this crazy plan to reveal itself....
that pretty much took me back. God then really began to ask me the hard questions... Katy, can you wait? what I am doing is going to take longer the 2 months.. can you wait? Will you be faithful and obedient to me? will you continue to fight and push through, trusting that I am a God of restoration and healing? can you wait?

oh, man. God is taking me through the rough waters right now. I have been pretty much ripped from the people who were most dear to my heart, and now all I really truly have is God. So, I am trying, everyday learning to trust God, learning to wait on him, allowing the Holy Spirit to come and take over more and more.

"In the meantime (Noah) dabbed the tar, sawed the timbers, and looked to heaven..."

Theme #2...For me, my meantime is to learn how to be a Godly wife. To really look at my role, what it means, what it is, why God created women to be mans wife. and to TRUST that God will do His will, in His time, the way He wants... Yes, God, I will wait. I may not always be the perfect picture of patience, but I'm in it... here we go.

Praying for patience and restored hope, daily.