still. and amazed.

I just needed to post and say how amazingly beautiful God is. My heart is encountering His once more, and I am reminded of that loving feeling I get being in His presence, it is all consuming, peaceful, calm. I feel and see God's love the most when I am standing in awe of His creation. I got see a beautiful sunset today, back in Lake Elsinore, a place I thought I would never be again, yet, here I am stunned at the beauty it holds. There is something that feels like home in Elsinore, I don't know why, but it just does... The Lord is so good. There is nothing stable about my life right now, there is nothing really happy or grand, most days I struggle to keep a smile on my face and my head up.. the only thing in me that is keeping me on solid ground is God. He is always there, he hasn't left, He isn't running away, He loves me still, I am His precious girl. I feel that, now more then ever before. I understand a bit more of how unworthy I am of His love, how much I DON'T deserve it, and I see now more how much God wants to give me His love, how He longs to be close, to have my ear. He has it. I am walking and God is giving me hope, he has my attention and I will follow. I don't know what will happen in my situation but, I am committed to see how the Lord reveals himself, how it will all unwind... It will. I know it will, whether my wildest hopes and dreams are granted the way I hope they will be, or the Lord takes me somewhere different, I know his will is the best. I am trusting. I am waiting patiently on Him. He is steady, He is unfailing, He is solid, I can trust Him, He holds it all in His hands.

I will wait.

Psalm 37:7 "Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him..."