"cherish lifes simple pleasures..."

As I was washing my face and getting ready for bed, I read this quote on the shower curtain... "cherish lifes simple pleasures..." I know, strange for a shower curtain, but it got me thinking... Here I am in my bed, well I guess it still doesn't feel like "my" bed, there is something missing... but here I am, no make-up in one of my favorite sleeping shirts, one of the ones I stole... All I can think about is one simple pleasure, going to sleep with the person you love. no big deal right, I mean you do it every night... get ready for bed, turn down the covers, maybe share a few words about your day, then lights off, quick kiss, and then you fall asleep... something so simple... Im trying not to beat myself up all of the time, but I cant help it. Im realizing so much. There are so many things that I just want to do over. So many things I want to say. I went to lunch today with someone who has really been sharing a lot of wisdom, and is helping to guide me through this rough patch of life.. .it was a sweet and sour lunch for us both. We went to Islands... turns out, ourselves and our signicant others both really enjoyed going there, and there we were without them... His story is a beautiful one with a long life and marriage with his sweetheart who passed away almost a year ago... mine however is just a sad one, filled with not cherishing lifes simple pleasures...

Somedays I am stronger then others, someday I am filled with lots of hope as I move forward making changes, stepping in a Godward direction, and other days, like this one, I am just sad. Its like missing an arm or a leg, you really just are never the same without it, without him. This in no way should be taken as a pitty party post, I really dont mean for it to be that... just sharing my feelings and thoughts...
tomorrow is new, oh God, what will you have for me... I know there will be some really tough things coming up for me in the couple of weeks, please keep me in your prayers, pray that God gives me wisdom and strength to become independent and take steps towards health in many areas of my life...

Be grateful for the simple pleasure of going to bed in a warm bed with that precious gift that lays next to you...

good night
K.